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Watched this film several days ago.
Well, you may say, that i'm yet too young to watch films like that, and surely i am, but i got smth. very important after.
Young woman in her 30's comes up to a conclusion that she lives a wrong life. It is not wrong, it's just not hers. She has a career, a husband, but she can't breathe, she's locked in this routine.
After divorce she decides to go travelling, what she thinks would be good for her reabilitation. And sure it is. It was a painful year of forgiveness and observation. Finally she understood that she can not be free till she's ready to forgive herself and believe in love again.
And then she questioned herself with: 'Do i want to be happy?' or smth...
That was the point i got for myself.
The only way to become happy and ready for new experience (no matter how pleasant or not it would be) is to stop suffering.
Suffer is like a drug. You start and then you can't stop because this sufferring becomes your stable condition. You are so exhausted that you'd rather find yourself in well-known kind of melancholy than go for smth. extremely new and unexpectable.
Ruin is a gift, ruin is the road to transformation.
Your sadness shall never become smth. stable, it must give you an impulse to regenerate, to move straight, not looking back, but minding your experience somewhere at the back of your eyes.
That is the only way to recover. To find yourself ina brand-new image of the world around you.
Take a chance!