long way home

I'm very proud of myself for i'm not moaning anymore. That makes me feel much, much better.
Now my aim is to choose proper coordinates to follow. I'll explain.
For today i have several ways to develop:

1. I can return to that nagging kind of girl and become a complete shit finally. it's very easy, believe me.
2. I can vanish in hundreds of different trifles like make up, diets, fashion...all in all, that feminine stuff. That is easy too and, btw, very pleasant.
3. I can immerge myself in my studies. Not very pleasant, but at least useful and moreover, this can take all my free-time, what can be beneficial.
4. I can spend all my time (i mean ALL) with my friends just to make sure that i'm yet not absolutely alone here. 
5. I can bury myself in cartonnage, decoupage, card-making, the things i normally do during holidays. It's so exciting that you can think of nothin while making another pair of earrings.
6. I can read. Well, sure, i read a lot all the time, but now i can read just not to think of anything else, except for the book.

Maybe i can do smth. else. sure, i can. But how to keep balanced doing all this at once, huh?